Have you ever had one of those days where you had all these big plans and by the end of the day you were disappointed at every turn?
Maybe it's just me, but today just started off bad from the start. I woke up and of course the spot where my, well damn it, what is Eric (@Viking_Sheriff) to me? It just seems to degrade his status in my life by calling him my boyfriend. Of course, he is no boy, by any standards.
*Lusty thoughts rushing forward*
Oops!
*Shaking my head in an attempt to clear it*
I apologize.
*Embarrassed by my lack of self control*
So, where was I? Oh yeah, what do I call Eric? My Husband? No, definitely not. I know it gets on his nerves and hurts his feelings, but simply handing over a knife is not an act of entering into marriage. Well, not one I acknowledge, anyways.
*Shaking my head, begrudgingly and thinking: Not like he asked me anyways! Grimace, quickly followed by guilt and shame*
Lover? Heavens no! I guess I will just go with the way of the Vampire (it's important to remember to always capatilize that V! *Rolling my eyes*) and state it as clear as day:
Eric is Mine
Now that I have worked out that little problem. Where was I? Oh yeah. I awoke to an empty bed.I know this is hazard of dating a Vamp (capital V, remember that *Wink*) and not having a light tight room for us to share. Which I might add having one would be just as awful for me as it would be for him if he were to stay in my non-Light Tight room after sunrise. I love the sun streaming in through the windows. Anyways, let's get back on track. I'm not stupid and this is definitely the first or last time I will awake alone *Sighing heavily*. But for some reason, this morning, seeing the other side of the bed left me feeling depressed and lonely. Add on top of all that internal turmoil, today was the grand opening for Merlotte's. In order to support Sam (@Sam_Merlotte_TB), Crystal (@HotShotChickTB, Isabella (@wereisabella), Blondy (@blondy2000) and I all showed up early to help unload the truck and make sure everything was ready.
We actually had a great time. By the end, we were all dancing in front of the bar while listening to "Bad Things" on the jukebox. But then it hit us. We opened and not one single person showed up. After a few hours, Sam allowed us to leave early. We were sad because no one showed up but thrilled because we all got to go shopping at Tara's Togs. I found the sexy blue lingerie you see above, for my Eric. I was so nervous shopping, hoping he would enjoy it on me and then enjoy taking it off me.
*frown*
As Crystal and I headed home (Oh I forgot, I told Crystal she could move in), we had a discussion about Eric and I. Let's just say it brought some things to light that I was already starting to worry about. But that's another day's discussion. I was all prepared to relax and pamper myself some before getting ready for Eric, but I kept getting interrupted. First, Crystal and Felton got into it, because...well honestly it doesn't matter why. That's their business and who am I to spread it? Anyways, I ran outside because I heard him growling and starting to shift. Fortunately, he didn't, but the jerk had the nerve to growl at me. I swear I was tempted to call the pound and see if they'd put him down for me!
*chuckling*
Then as I finished running my bath water and pouring me a glass of wine, Bill stopped by. He's decided he is ok with Eric and I being together and said we could be friends. The thing that bothered me was his coldness and I absolutely hate that. I sometimes wish I could read his mind. Anyways, he left as quickly as he showed up, leaving me to my simple vices.
The bath was relaxing. Afterwards I slipped into my surprise for Eric (see picture above) and sprawled out on the bed, reading while I waited. It was only holding on to the thought of seeing him tonight that kept me from drowning in my sorrows over not only today's events but the confliction of feelings I have. But now I am sitting here, all dressed up and there isn't anyone to appreciate or enjoy it. Not even I can. A million questions running through my mind and all I want to do is curl up and cry...
No comments:
Post a Comment